I don't even have a single Christmas decoration in my home. No Christmas tree. No lonely ornament hanging from a curtain rod. Not that I ever did, anyway. Once I made a 10-inch christmas tree out of paper and put it in the window, but that wasn`t a very happy Christmas.
A friend of mine was over last weekend and she expressed her desire to create traditions with her lover and was determined to wake him up early the next morning so that they could both decorate their Christmas tree together.
Maybe, one day, the tradition of Christmas will make sense to me. And I will fill my home with tradition and Christmas decorations. I do have my eye on an all-red christmas tree that would look great against my smokey blue living room walls, though. If I`m going to instill tradition in my life, I want it to at least be something slightly unconventional.
But this year, all I have in terms of festive decoration is this illustration.
I`m having a difficult time being festive this year as it is, anyway. When your lover calls you up and is falling apart because someone he loves is dying, when your new dog has been abused all his life and doesn`t trust people, when there is heartache all around, it is difficult to devote time to Christmas.
And even though I have a take-it-or-leave-it attitude about Christmas, and even though there is grief all around, i think that tomorrow I will still go out and get that one Christmas decoration, as lonely as it may be, and hang it from the loneliest curtain rod in the house, just because I know that my lover loves Christmas and it will make him smile when he comes home.